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Hater

By: Maya Angelou


A hater is someone who is jealous and envious and spends all their time trying to make you look small so they can look tall.
They are very negative people to say the least. Nothing is ever good enough!
When you make your mark, you will always attract some haters…
That’s why you have to be careful with whom you share your blessings and your dreams, because some folk can’t handle seeing you blessed…
It’s dangerous to be like somebody else… If God wanted you to be like somebody else, He would have given you what He gave them! Right?
You never know what people have gone through to get what they have…
The problem I have with haters is that they see my glory, but they don’t know my story…
If the grass looks greener on the other side of the fence, you can rest assured that the water bill is higher there too!
We’ve all got some haters among us!
Some people envy you because you can:
a) Have a relationship with God
b) Light up a room when you walk in
c) Start your own business
d) Tell a man / woman to hit the curb (if he / she isn’t about the right thing)
e) Raise your children without both parents being in the home

Haters can’t stand to see you happy.
Haters will never want to see you succeed.
Most of our haters are people who are supposed to be on our side.
How do you handle your undercover haters?

You can handle these haters by:
1. Knowing who you are & who your true friends are *(VERY IMPORTANT!!)

2. Having a purpose to your life: Purpose does not mean having a job. You can have a job and still be unfulfilled. A purpose is having a clear sense of what God has called you to be. Your purpose is not defined by what others think about you.

3. By remembering what you have is by divine prerogative and not human manipulation.

Fulfill your dreams! You only have one life to live…when its your time to leave this earth, you ‘want’ to be able to say, ‘I’ve lived my life and fulfilled ‘my’ dreams,… Now I’m ready to go HOME!

When God gives you favor, you can tell your haters, ‘Don’t look at me…Look at Who is in charge of me…’

Why Her?

It's funny how it's been 8 months, but I'm still feeling the aftermath of my last relationship. Ultimately, I know I am in a better place, physically & mentally...but this song was brought to my attention and pretty much explained how I feel about this whole ordeal. It hit me like a ton of bricks... You can see the video here. The Lyrics that particularly hit home follow.

My last tear just fell from my eyes
Told myself that I wasn't going to cry no more
You did what you did, it is what it is
Moved on with my life, but not really
Spent too much time wondering how could you
(You do this to us while we we're in love)
I guess I was thinking too much

I listen to you tell me your dreams
And your fears, I wiped your tears
I was there and this is why this is hurting me

Why her? Why her?
Did I get on your nerves?
Did I give you too much that you couldn't handle my love?
Why her? Why her?
Tell me what she was worth it, to make you put her first and deceive me

This going to be the last time we say goodbye
Ain't going to be no reruns of this episode
You did what you did, it is what it is
Maybe if you would of told me
You weren't happy, you weren't satisfied
We could of worked it out, maybe we could of tried
(But you didn't say nothing)
All of along fakin' it in front of me. Why?

Now ladies, you all know I speak from experience right?
I used to look at him and wonder why,
Why her?
You know what I'm saying?
But ladies, I learn not to worry about them living a happily ever after
Because that shit is just built on a lie
So it's sure to fall, that's why I stand tall...

Remember When?

I used to post music video's, MP3's, artists I'm into, and local events? It was a while ago, and I agree with all of you. My blogging game fell off! But, I assure you it's going to come back...right. about. now!

So, this year will be the 4th annual Livestock Block Party. I can say that I've been to all of them and really can't wait until this years! Summer's not over until this happens ;)

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On a more personal note, I've really been into all these slow lovey dovey jams. My latest playlist includes "You don't know my name" by Alicia Keys and "Be your girl" by Teedra Moses. I think it's time to find my lobster soon. Tall, dark, and handsome please =)

This is a really scattered blog post, and probably has to do with the fact that it's not even 8 am. School has so far been uninteresting to say the least. I was really looking forward to going back after a nice four month break but my teachers and courses really proved me wrong this time around. My parents leave me starting this Sunday for a nice 2 week vaca, which means I get the house alllll to myself! Muahaha. Oh yeah, I guess I failed to mention that I got into a car accident last Sunday. My body is currently in pain and my car won't be fixed for another week. I can honestly say I really do see life differently. My accident could have been far worse, and I'm really glad that I'm okay. I never want to get that feeling where I might be seriously hurt. It's crazy to think that at any given moment someone can (indirectly of course) kill you. If your reading this...please don't drink and drive, and drive carefully because not only is your life in danger, but so are the hundreds of other people on the road. Be smart people!

Insomnia

6 am - Can't sleep and all I can think of is how I've abandoned this "diary" I've kept for almost 3 years now, I think? It has been far too long since I last wrote a post.

School starts in a week. Summer is over...and I haven't really kept my life updated. Summer, in short- was a whirlwind of events. Summer nights were spent with good company, and this year I definitely partied more than I ever have. I managed to travel to LA & Toronto but I still feel the need to go somewhere foreign to me. I'm thinking Paris or Tokyo...I feel like I'm finally ready to experience a place where I would have a language barrier to face. I also miss NYC dearly and am seriously thinking of spending Christmas & New Years there. Although I love my city dearly, I feel like I was meant for something bigger. I want to fully embrace living somewhere where my mom and my bestfriend isn't a car drive away, it's almost as if I need to experience being independent at an extreme. Let's face it.

I'm never satisfied.

No matter how much I love and enjoy my life, I always want more. I can only think of one time in my life where I felt perfectly content with every aspect of my life. Other than that time...it's never enough. A lot has happened this summer. Where this season is usually filled with Summer Loves, flings, or 2-month relationships if you will, for the first time I found myself quite happy being in a relationship with myself, the most important person in my life right now. I feel focused on finishing school and starting my real life. My last relationship, sadly, has really taken away the ability for me to see the goodness in others, as well as put up a wall that no one has been able to break down fully. I'm not the optimist I once was, but everyday, I miss her, and how it made life seem so effortless. Although I would love to be that way, a huge part of me cannot trust people that easily, or even let myself fall for someone who could potentially be good for me. This summer, I realized this the hard way, and I'll leave it at that.

Anyways. This is getting way too personal. I'll leave you with this, Mayer Hawthorne's "A Strange Arrangement" is my Summer 2009 album. I'm in love with every song. It makes me feel all fuzzy or emotional inside when I think that I once felt the happiness or sadness in each song, with a motown soul feel, you really can't listen to this album without feeling some sort of strong emotion. I guess I should really try to sleep. The sun's beaming in my eyes as I end this...I promise I'll be back sooner this time around. ;)

Oh yeah. Some fantastic news to end this post with. JAY-Z LIVE IN VANCOUVER! Friday, October 16th @ GM Place. You know whats up. I need to be front row floor and centre, anything for my future ex-husband!

Scattered Thoughts

- Life in LA is so insane
- Love/Hate being "Single"
- Nostalgia is a bitch

" I loved real real hard once
But the love wasn't returned
Found out the man I'd die for
He wasn't even concerned
I tried, and I tried, and I tried
to keep him in my life
I cried, and I cried, and I cried
but I couldn't make it right
But I, I loved the young man
And if you ever been in love
then you'd understand
That what you want might make you cry
What you need might pass you by. "
- Lauryn Hill

Cannot wait,

To leave this hell hole. Goodbye =)

Been way too long.

It's been a long long time since I've written anything. I need to start getting back to one of my true loves, which is blogging...or just writing in general. A lot has happened in the last few months. I've left a lot of my past in the past and am very happy to say that I am stronger because of it. I've gone through a lot of hurt, but I'm finally back to the real me. I have all the people I need in life, the rest can go through life knowing what they fucked up on, and what kind of people they became because of it.

Summer is officially here. I live for the summers we are blessed with. The days where the suns out and the breeze is blowin' are the best. Vancouver's beauty never ceases to amaze me. I love where I live. The nightlife scene here has been on blast, and the talent coming out of our city is not stopping. The 2010 Olympics is showing the world what we have to offer, which is everything anyone would want. Beautiful weather, people, outdoors, and city life.

I'd love to ramble on about my life in general, but all I really have to say about my journey so far is that I'm in love with the people I have around me. I honestly don't know what I would do without them. As for the love life? It's quite non-existent, and I'm happy with that. I love where I am in life right now. =)

I promise I'll be back sooner than later. But for now, I'll leave you to this list that gave me quite the laugh.

Self-titled

Rehab

" Ain't it crazy
When your love slams?
You'll do anything
For the one you love
'Cause anytime
That you needed me
I'd be there
It's like
You were my favorite drug
The only problem is
That you was using me
In a different way
That I was using you
But now that I know
That it's not meant to be
You gotta go
I gotta wean myself off of you

And I'll never give
myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don't even recognize
The ways you hurt me
Do you?
It's gonna take a
miracle to bring
me back
And you're the one to blame.. "